I really wish I could see him right now. 😕#army #sutton #personal #love #hate #inbetween

I get to see Jordan next Tuesday.
I hope he changes his mind.
I want him to feel emotions and I want to remind him why he loves me.

Jordan wrote on my wall telling me happy birthday.
I’m crying.
I am so happy that he is safe.

If I were to see anything about Jordan on here I would die.

Jordan gets deployed in 13 days.
Please every god keep him safe.
I am begging you.
I love that man like I have never loved someone before.
He means the world to me.
Please pray to whatever god. Or whatever you do.
I love all of you that follow me an this would be the best birthday gift for me.

I just sometimes wish that I did move to Germany and did marry him. Sometimes I wish I never broke up with him. I just am so head over heels for him still, after 6 years. I just hope that in 3 to 6 months he will be protected by every god out there. I know that that is short compared to others but no matter how long he still means the world to me He is more important to me than anyone else on the planet. If he were to die in combat I have no clue what I will be capable of. And that scares me. It scares me that someone has so much hold over me. I don’t think I would live. Just whatever religion you are just please pray for him to come home safe. Thank you. I love you all.

People may find it weird when I am out in public and I am on the phone with Jordan and he is going to bed since Germany is like 6 hours ahead and I tell him goodnight.

I was off work and waiting for my dad to get me one day and I was walking around my store and I was getting off the phone and I told him,”Goodnight baby I love you, and miss you and muah!” and then hung up. And I was near an old couple and they asked me,”Sorry for budding in young lady but why are you saying goodnight? It is only 3 in the afternoon.” And I explained to them that he was in Germany and in the army and whatnot and then they asked how old I was. I told them I was 17. And we had a conversation for like 10 minutes. They asked multiple questions like how long we have known each other and if we think we will always be together and then they told me that they have known each other since they were in high school and that her husband was in the army too when they were together and she started tearing up and i was also and she hugged me and she whispered,”Stay strong and don’t give up. He will need you more than you know and you can do it, you seem like a strong young woman.” 

Now everytime they come in the store they get in my line, no matter how long it is, and ask me how he is doing. This is the sweetest thing that has happened to me, and yeah, I just thought I would share this at almost 2 am (:

I love all this rain :) I just wish you were here to hold me through the night. But you will be here soon enough, I love you.

Just got off the phone with Jordan.
It was great :)
I told him I got that little satchel thing and he said I was so gay which transfers to you’re so cute.
I hope he will like it when I get it and show it on cam :3
We had a good convo and I can’t wait til November.
I get to see him.
The only sucky part is he is getting deployed around christmas time.
I love that kid more than I love food and that is a lot lol.
Oh we also talked about really nasty things. Like literally nasty. Not sexual nasty. Lol.

So Jordan called me and told me the news.

He is getting deployed before Christmas this year. So I have no idea if he will be able to come and see me during Thanksgiving this year. That is when he is taking his leave instead of Christmas time cause he obviously wont be here to take it.

I really hope that he will be able to come here and be with me. 

I  know he will be okay but it is just hard and I will need friends that care and that wont mind me posting about him all the time. 

I am gonna go eat something cause my tummy and I am gonna wait for his call again today, I hope he actually calls. 

We talked a bit earlier on FB chat so I am doing good so far, I just want to hear his voice ya knooooo

but yeah, food (:

dearjaime-sincerelyme:

This just made my night.! <3

(Source: dearjaimesincerelyme)

Just ordered this (: 

ACU and Black strap ! (: 

I cannot wait to get it and show Jordan (:

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tonight turned out nice (:

and I get the discount :3

Thanks Raechel !

Just had an “I love you more” fight with Jordan before he went to work

I love him so much.

he is calling me after he gets out of work which will be like 10 or 11 am here.

I cannot wait.