I’m scared that when I go to the obgyn in the morning she is going to ask why I have these scars.
It’s nerve wracking.
I’m more scared about her seeing my scars then of her looking in my vagina. Omfg

Oh my god so my dad is so like breathing down my neck.
He is telling me to get out of the bathroom and that I’ve been in there long enough. Um bitch fuck off.
DAD LET ME POO AND THEN SHOWER.
I need my me time fuck off you douche.

THIS IS WHY SHE IS MY FAVORITE TEACHER OMFG. SHE IS THE ABSOLUTE BEST. OMFG.

I text my teacher about important things. BUT SHE ISN’T EVEN UP TO DATE IM CRYING.

I was bored and couldn’t sleep.
Well shit.

WHAT DOESN’T THIS BOY UNDERSTAND?!?! DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT!!!!??????!?????

I really want cereal but im congested :( my life is poop. I gotta pee too but I am so weak to actually get up.

This is what I do when I have taken too many pills and text my ex from freshman year.

I am going to write to Andrew today. I think that I have enough to tell him now since he left to basics. Even though I’m sick ill write. I still don’t know how I feel about him. This sucks.

Sooooooo this just happened.

I just told a complete stranger that I cut myself last month.
No one knows about this besides you guys on here.
I’m scared to let someone in again.
Gotta set an appointment up tomorrow when they call.
Why is there something wrong with me?

Don’t tell me to fucking calm down and to “realize that it is cool to be alive.” How bout you don’t know a fucking thing about me. Don’t tell me it is cool to be alive when all I want to do is die.

My dad is making me call to make an appointment to see someone because he thinks, along with my mom, that I am smoking because I’m troubled. God damn it. Get off my back. I smoke because you make my life stressful.

So I just got asked out on a date to a midnight showing of Iron Man 3 and I want to go sooooo bad but my parents :(
And it’s with someone I’ve liked since I started working at my job.

LE SIGH

Robert is talking to me again……. Fuck